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Oh, god, what doesn't annoy me? I am annoyed by everything right now, turned inside out, raw. My bipolar, unmedicated, manifests with a lot of rage and annoyance and taking things far more personally than they are intended, and did I mention rage?
Though to be fair, most of the big things that upset me anymore take me straight to rage and fear for people and hatred of people, so.
1. When someone tells me I feel some way I don't, or that I don't feel some way I do. I run into this A LOT with people who know I have bipolar. I already don't trust my brain and my responses to things, but it is annoying as hell when people try to tell me I do or don't feel some way.
2. Slightly less annoying, because I spend a great deal of time explaining emotions versus logic to J, who is basically a robot, is when someone tells me I shouldn't feel the way I feel. This annoys me less now than it did when I was younger, because okay, so what? I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. It is what it is.
3. That series of white boys in their 20s I encountered in KC while walking my dog. They all had dogs too, big dogs, off leash, and every single time I met a new one, he laughed and told me how friendly his dog was as his dog ran at us, approximately half a second before there was a dog fight. They never helped break up the fight either, instead stood around freaking out. I'm glad my girl wears a harness, because I can pick up 50 pounds of fighting dog so much easier when she's all strapped up.
4. People who say something along the lines of, why do you criticize media so much, it's only a book/tv show/movie/whatever, it doesn't really mean anything? Baby brother used to say this to try to calm me down when I went on a rant. It did not work, obviously.
5. Sharing a living space. I am not good at living with others, I hate not knowing who will be in the house when, and I tend to snap when I haven't been getting enough alone time. There are maybe three or four people in the world I can easily live with. It's nothing personal to anyone, and all about my need for alone time.
6. When my drink sits empty at a restaurant. This is the number one thing that makes me want to lower a tip (though I normally don't). I drink a lot, I order a water with whatever other drink I get, and I request a pitcher of water where possible.
7. "You must not have a very serious case of bipolar if you managed to go to grad school." Oh wait, no, that's annoyance to rage. (And yes, someone said this to me.)
8. Forgetting to take out meat to thaw. I am really bad at remembering to do this.
Oh, god, what doesn't annoy me? I am annoyed by everything right now, turned inside out, raw. My bipolar, unmedicated, manifests with a lot of rage and annoyance and taking things far more personally than they are intended, and did I mention rage?
Though to be fair, most of the big things that upset me anymore take me straight to rage and fear for people and hatred of people, so.
1. When someone tells me I feel some way I don't, or that I don't feel some way I do. I run into this A LOT with people who know I have bipolar. I already don't trust my brain and my responses to things, but it is annoying as hell when people try to tell me I do or don't feel some way.
2. Slightly less annoying, because I spend a great deal of time explaining emotions versus logic to J, who is basically a robot, is when someone tells me I shouldn't feel the way I feel. This annoys me less now than it did when I was younger, because okay, so what? I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. It is what it is.
3. That series of white boys in their 20s I encountered in KC while walking my dog. They all had dogs too, big dogs, off leash, and every single time I met a new one, he laughed and told me how friendly his dog was as his dog ran at us, approximately half a second before there was a dog fight. They never helped break up the fight either, instead stood around freaking out. I'm glad my girl wears a harness, because I can pick up 50 pounds of fighting dog so much easier when she's all strapped up.
4. People who say something along the lines of, why do you criticize media so much, it's only a book/tv show/movie/whatever, it doesn't really mean anything? Baby brother used to say this to try to calm me down when I went on a rant. It did not work, obviously.
5. Sharing a living space. I am not good at living with others, I hate not knowing who will be in the house when, and I tend to snap when I haven't been getting enough alone time. There are maybe three or four people in the world I can easily live with. It's nothing personal to anyone, and all about my need for alone time.
6. When my drink sits empty at a restaurant. This is the number one thing that makes me want to lower a tip (though I normally don't). I drink a lot, I order a water with whatever other drink I get, and I request a pitcher of water where possible.
7. "You must not have a very serious case of bipolar if you managed to go to grad school." Oh wait, no, that's annoyance to rage. (And yes, someone said this to me.)
8. Forgetting to take out meat to thaw. I am really bad at remembering to do this.
