Okay, I am disengaging with the discussion about misogyny in Supernatural (except maybe to link entries here) because I am about to start cursing at people. I am enfuriated, and at this point it is because so many fans who either don't see or don't care about the misogyny are telling us to sit down and shut the hell up, stop being whiny women, stop being PC, etc. and to stop watching the show and ruining it with our complaints.

You know what? It is my goddamn show too and if my complaints bother you so much, maybe it is because there is actually a problem with the show which you don't want to face. Even if there really isn't a problem (which there is, you'll never change my mind on that) how about you just stop reading the discussion instead of attacking us?

I love Supernatural. I loved it from the first moment I heard about it, because it deals with my favorite things: horror, complicated family relationships, road trips, good music, a hot car, attractive people, and on and on. I love Supernatural.

I am not some nebulous person who might be offended by the possible misogyny. I AM A WOMAN AND I AM OFFENDED. By the gendered insults, the presentation of women as victims or villains, virgins or whores, and other things.

I am offended and angry because I love this show, I am invested in it, and as a woman, I often feel hated and disrespected by it.

Goddamn fandom. Disengage now, Carla.

I have been so non-fannish lately, it's very sad. (Well, not sad, exactly, I just miss being fannish.) I watch my shows (I'm down to Bones and Supernatural, though I will get caught up on BSG eventually -- sooner rather than later, because there's a lot of fic I'd like to read -- and I still intend to give Dresden Files a chance), read my books (one of my goals this spring is to read a huge chunk of the To Read piles in order to see what I can get rid of before I move), and spaz about school.

I still don't know where I'm going because the decision is hard to make. I know where I'd like to go based on social life/roommate situation, I know where I'd like to go based on where I want to practice after I'm done, I know where I want to go based on degree opportunities, and I know where I want to go based on simple prestige of the school -- unfortunately, most of those things don't apply to the same place.

I've been tearing through books and Netflix movies, though, and I'm excited about Wiscon in May. I really like the story I have started for Remix/Redux, and I'm less fond of the story for Femslash 07, but I still like the idea behind it. So there is a little bit of fannish activity occuring, not much.

Part of it is after some things changed in my personal life, I lost my Buffy watching partner, and have just kind of slumped in fandom since then. I'm not sure why, it's not like she provided a huge outlet for fannish thoughts. I guess watching it with someone who hadn't seen it before just sparked new happiness in me. I'll get it back.

My workouts continue to get better. Today was particularly good, both with cardio and with weight lifting. I'm especially pleased to have upped my bench press another five pounds, bringing me to ninety pounds overall. That's just ten pounds away from my first goal. I think by mid-March, at the latest, I'll be there.

Please stop making Fast and the Furious movies!

Drift isn't new.

Not enough Vin Diesel right now.

Okay, from now on, I'm staying away from all Lost communities and big discussions, because the Ana-Lucia hate just boggles my mind. I will stay here and squee with nikitangel, thanks. I love you, Ana-Lucia. Also Locke and Hurley and Eko.

Why I thought it would be different tonight, I don't know.