Fandom: Yuletide 2015 Progress

[escritoireazul]

I am not doing so well, mental health-wise, and I know I am posting so much, writing so much for Yuletide, because I am using the words to stay ahead of the wave of terrible that is crashing over me. This year has really, really sucked, but so did last year, and the year before that, and the year before that. Starting with Mom's death in 2012, everything has just been a giant ball of fire and awfulness, and I can't manage to drag myself back up that cliff.

Mixed metaphors for the win.

Assignment: 10k, old fandom, posted
Pinch Hit: 3000 words, old fandom, posted
Treat #1: 1500 words, new fandom, outlined (probably another 2000 words, but I'm stuck on the story I planned to tell, and need to consider a different option)
Treat #2: 3500 words, old fandom, posted (still considering a second half that will be another 5000 words, maybe)
Treat #3: 200 words, old fandom, outlined (still not really appropriate for Yuletide, probably should write this as a gift fic next year sometime)
Treat #4: 0 words, old fandom, brainstorming (this looks like it won't happen due to outside circumstances)
Treat #5: 1500 words, old fandom, posted
Treat #6: 3500 words, old fandom, posted
Treat #7: 1500 words, old fandom, posted
Treat #8: 300 words, new fandom, outlined (probably another 1500 words)

So that's six stories posted, more than 23k words posted. Last year, I posted eight stories, more than 22k words. So more words this year, but so far, fewer stories. I'm glad to have both my assignment and my pinch hit done, and I will be focusing on treats from here on out. (Well, that and editing the stories I've posted, which I'll do a couple times before reveals.) A couple of the treats in the list above just aren't going to happen, so I'm going to take another look at the letters I flagged for treating purposes, and see what I can do.

And meanwhile, behind me it hunts.

Comments

[sixbeforelunch]

I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I hope something breaks for you soon.

[escritoireazul]

Thank you.

[newredshoes]

♥ The light starts getting longer in a week. My mom always hated this time of year, and looked forward to the solstice passing. Thinking of you.

[escritoireazul]

I appreciate that. I look forward to solstice passing, and lighting my fire which will burn the night through. <3

[pene]

ah you are impressive, keeping ahead of the wave. I wish for speed and cunning for you. and that the wave behind goes flat before you do.

[escritoireazul]

Thank you.

[summerstorm]

I haven't started on my assignment or finished reviewing the canon because, well, part mental health reasons, part work reasons? My year has improved but this month has been not-great and I kept telling myself I could do yuletide but maybe I've put it off too long and I should default as soon as possible even though I've missed the default deadline but I still kind of want to go for it. I feel irresponsible.

I suppose I could always switch to the movie canon, I could do that one? It wouldn't be difficult and that gives me some extra time to work on the story I wanted to write (plus get through the source material).

Sorry you're having a rough time (sorry I made this about me and had to edit the comment to add that in...). It's impressive that you're getting so much done despite that. I hope it's helping a little bit as a coping mechanism. <3

[escritoireazul]

I think there is nothing wrong with defaulting, even after the default deadline, especially the way this month was so unexpectedly rough for you, but I also think that you can get your story done if you decide that is what you want to do, and your recipient will enjoy it. I will cheer you on if you decide to go for it.

I'm not sure if it helps, but it's probably not hurting me, so there's that, at least. And you should always feel free to vent here.