I am beyond any emotion right now. Speechless would be the best description on how I am feeling but still does not do the feeling justice. No words. No words to capture the feeling. This was the BEST Christmas give you could have EVER given me. Thank you from the deepest heart of my soul! I can’t ... you see, words are failing me now.
But I do want you to know this. I hope that my latest post hasn’t offended you or caused you to pause and wonder where in hell did that come from.
I wanted to explain the changes I’ve been through (I even asked a guy out, Carla! And the guy is one of my bosses!) and the only way I could honestly express these changes was to use you as an example.
Two years, the internet and you, Carla, were literally my special world in a special bottle. Kind of like what you feel with Sarah is how I felt about you (still do feel about you).
I would come home, hop on the computer and spend hours writing, going through e-mail and reading your journal, stories, comment and beta on your latest masterpiece and thought heaven had no name but this ... you.
It’s happen gradually but outside influences has been stealing me away from the internet - my health, my job, my school (the list is endless and shall not be counted) and I found myself at a crossroad. I realized the world doesn’t revolve around the internet. I realized that I changed. Hugely changed. What can I say?
I do hope you like the new me when you see me (I plan on visiting you next vacation).
No matter the changes, you will always be my adopted sister. You’ll be the one I call when I do get married, you’ll be the one I call when things get horribly bad, and you’ll be there, I have no worries on that knowledge. I’ll be there for you. Understand this, Carla. Understand it and know it to be the truth.
With that said, shit! I need to knock some people out of my house so I’ll be able to finish the last bit of your Christmas story and post it (once I figure out a way to do this).
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Date: 2005-12-26 07:13 pm (UTC)But I do want you to know this. I hope that my latest post hasn’t offended you or caused you to pause and wonder where in hell did that come from.
I wanted to explain the changes I’ve been through (I even asked a guy out, Carla! And the guy is one of my bosses!) and the only way I could honestly express these changes was to use you as an example.
Two years, the internet and you, Carla, were literally my special world in a special bottle. Kind of like what you feel with Sarah is how I felt about you (still do feel about you).
I would come home, hop on the computer and spend hours writing, going through e-mail and reading your journal, stories, comment and beta on your latest masterpiece and thought heaven had no name but this ... you.
It’s happen gradually but outside influences has been stealing me away from the internet - my health, my job, my school (the list is endless and shall not be counted) and I found myself at a crossroad. I realized the world doesn’t revolve around the internet. I realized that I changed. Hugely changed. What can I say?
I do hope you like the new me when you see me (I plan on visiting you next vacation).
No matter the changes, you will always be my adopted sister. You’ll be the one I call when I do get married, you’ll be the one I call when things get horribly bad, and you’ll be there, I have no worries on that knowledge. I’ll be there for you. Understand this, Carla. Understand it and know it to be the truth.
With that said, shit! I need to knock some people out of my house so I’ll be able to finish the last bit of your Christmas story and post it (once I figure out a way to do this).
Thank you! Merry Christmas!