escritoireazul

I am losing my fight against the bipolar. I have no interest in anything holiday related, I feel like crap, and while I want to write, I keep struggling with all the words not coming.

Assignment: 10k, old fandom, posted
Pinch Hit: 3000 words, old fandom, posted
~~Treat #1: 1500 words, new fandom, outlined~~ (I know the entirety of this story, but I have no more -- I don't even know. Energy? Brain? Whatever, I don't think it works, and I can't find a way to make it work.)
Treat #2: 3500 words, old fandom, posted (still considering a second half that will be another 5000 words, maybe)
Treat #3: 1500 words, old fandom, posted (still not really appropriate for Yuletide, but I decided not to give a fuck)
~~Treat #4: 0 words, old fandom, brainstorming~~ (I think the disheartening reason this won't happen, which I can't talk about, is part of why I am struggling to write.)
Treat #5: 1500 words, old fandom, posted
Treat #6: 3500 words, old fandom, posted
Treat #7: 1500 words, old fandom, posted
Treat #8: 1500 words, new fandom, posted
Treat #9: 1000 words, old fandom, posted

I would really like to reach ten stories posted this year, but I have tried multiple different ideas today, with no real progress, and I am disappointed in myself. (Yes, I know, I wrote a lot for Yuletide already. That doesn't matter at this point.)

Also, I went out as a default pinch hit, which is a little disheartening itself. I know it shouldn't be, because there are billions of reasons to default, and it really says nothing about my requests, and even if it was because the person hated my requests, I don't actually care, because I love them, but still. Disheartening. Of course, some awesome person has already posted a story for me, which is pretty bad ass of them. Thank you, anonymous person. I can't wait to read your story.