Fandom: Dance Academy heartbreak
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escritoireazulSpoilers for the end of season two, starting with 2x24.
I started tearing up when Sammy showed Abigail his modified solo, with the video of all of his friends dancing on the big screen behind him, both because it was just gorgeous and also because I knew what was coming. I didn't know how and why, though, and when the sirens started when Christian was headed in to give Tara the card, it was like a gut punch, because I could guess, at that moment, how it was playing out.
So yeah, teared up during the solo and then gross sobbing after, when Tara gets back to the Academy and all the characters we so love are mourning; Kat crying so hard she can't breathe and calling them his family, Ollie clutching at himself and sobbing; Christian silent in the background, hand pressed against his face to hold himself silent and still; and Abigail. Oh, god, Abigail, huddled in the shower, the water beating down on her and her mascara running and how she just collapses in on herself when Tara and Kat come get her. All of them asleep in Christian and Sammy's room just killed me more.
And then the next episode, with everyone struggling in the aftermath. The funeral and Sammy's birth family withdrawn from his dance family, and Abigail silently going to the barre and kicking off her heels and leading all of them into dancing in the dark mourning clothes, and Abigail trying to lose herself in dance auditions, and all the flashbacks to moments they spent with Sammy, and Ollie and Christian's fight and the very different guilt they carry over Sammy, which is at the heart of it kind of the same -- my heart can't take this. I had to stop watching for awhile, I was crying so hard.
And now that I've picked it back up again, right back to the crying during that beach memorial. I just caaaan't. Ethan coming back to be with his sister (sibling love is so important), and Sammy's list of things he wanted to do, especially number one, above everything else, even making it into his beloved academy, making a group of friends he'd know for the rest of his life and he did and oh god Sammy I cannot my heart is going to explode for you.
And the bit about falling in love so his heart takes over for his head, and the camera flashes to Ollie and to Abigail and god, Sammy, in episode one I did not expect you to end up being one of the most amazing, most delightful, most nuanced and wonderful portrayals of a queer character, one of the few that really speaks to my experience as a queer person, but you did. Oh, you did.
Sammy.
For a long time, I was furious when I was spoiled, not because I was spoiled, but because I was so mad that another queer character was dead. And now I am heart broken over it as well as pissed. But at the same time, oh god, I'm so glad I watched season two. So glad.
And now one more episode. Maybe I won't cry through this one like I did the last two.
ETA: Hahahahaha, nope.
What in the world am I going to watch next? Any recommendations for fun tv shows about teens? I love werewolves and athletes, particularly gymnasts and dancers, and shows with diverse casts, and really don't watch anything about lawyers. I have Netflix streaming and Amazon Prime and Hulu plus at my disposal.
I started tearing up when Sammy showed Abigail his modified solo, with the video of all of his friends dancing on the big screen behind him, both because it was just gorgeous and also because I knew what was coming. I didn't know how and why, though, and when the sirens started when Christian was headed in to give Tara the card, it was like a gut punch, because I could guess, at that moment, how it was playing out.
So yeah, teared up during the solo and then gross sobbing after, when Tara gets back to the Academy and all the characters we so love are mourning; Kat crying so hard she can't breathe and calling them his family, Ollie clutching at himself and sobbing; Christian silent in the background, hand pressed against his face to hold himself silent and still; and Abigail. Oh, god, Abigail, huddled in the shower, the water beating down on her and her mascara running and how she just collapses in on herself when Tara and Kat come get her. All of them asleep in Christian and Sammy's room just killed me more.
And then the next episode, with everyone struggling in the aftermath. The funeral and Sammy's birth family withdrawn from his dance family, and Abigail silently going to the barre and kicking off her heels and leading all of them into dancing in the dark mourning clothes, and Abigail trying to lose herself in dance auditions, and all the flashbacks to moments they spent with Sammy, and Ollie and Christian's fight and the very different guilt they carry over Sammy, which is at the heart of it kind of the same -- my heart can't take this. I had to stop watching for awhile, I was crying so hard.
And now that I've picked it back up again, right back to the crying during that beach memorial. I just caaaan't. Ethan coming back to be with his sister (sibling love is so important), and Sammy's list of things he wanted to do, especially number one, above everything else, even making it into his beloved academy, making a group of friends he'd know for the rest of his life and he did and oh god Sammy I cannot my heart is going to explode for you.
And the bit about falling in love so his heart takes over for his head, and the camera flashes to Ollie and to Abigail and god, Sammy, in episode one I did not expect you to end up being one of the most amazing, most delightful, most nuanced and wonderful portrayals of a queer character, one of the few that really speaks to my experience as a queer person, but you did. Oh, you did.
Sammy.
For a long time, I was furious when I was spoiled, not because I was spoiled, but because I was so mad that another queer character was dead. And now I am heart broken over it as well as pissed. But at the same time, oh god, I'm so glad I watched season two. So glad.
And now one more episode. Maybe I won't cry through this one like I did the last two.
ETA: Hahahahaha, nope.
What in the world am I going to watch next? Any recommendations for fun tv shows about teens? I love werewolves and athletes, particularly gymnasts and dancers, and shows with diverse casts, and really don't watch anything about lawyers. I have Netflix streaming and Amazon Prime and Hulu plus at my disposal.
