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It's time!

Jax has taken to shirtless moping. Fangirls everywhere squee. I prefer Tara sitting at the table alone with her coffee in black myself. And Gemma, sitting in a hotel room, staring at herself in the mirror. God, Gemma, so covered up, so unlike herself.

Ouch, Clay is looking old and broken. And keeping the secret about Abel from Gemma, that's some bullshit. When will they learn keeping secrets only tears the club and the family apart.

My boyfriend Opie is looking GOOD. And he's stalking through the house to go take care of Jax. Go be awesome, Opie. GO BE AWESOME.

Nice close-up of John Teller's picture on the wall.

Oh god, Opie is literally carrying Jax into the shower. Suddenly some of the hurt/comfort thing people have makes sense.

Gemma and Clay on the phone together. God. So much love between them after everything. My heart aches. And Gemma's so open with her love these days. So strong with it, so vocal.

GOD.

Jax shower scene, fans will love this too.

I have to say, Jax has been such a go getter, pushing through to do what he wants even when it's the wrong thing to do, I'm a little surprised to find that he's been drinking and drugging himself to oblivion since Abel was kidnapped. I wonder if this is going to recast him as the son needing guidance from his parents as he's lost the thing that was really turning him into an adult.

Tara's turning to Clay for advice? With Gemma gone, this makes sense, and I like it. I also like the rumble of Clay's voice and the way he's acting like a loving father figure to Jax and Tara. Despite everything (OH GOD WHY DID YOU KILL DONNA?), I really love Clay a lot.

I love the juxtaposition of Jax and Tara, both dressed so dark, against the light in the nursery.

Tara thinks Jax blames her! Oh, god, no wonder she's so on edge, so tense. Every line of her body, the set of her jaw -- it's nicely done. Wait, Jax, what the hell is this? Are you really going to try to leave Tara because you're trying to ~protect her or some shit? SERIOUSLY? AFTER EVERYTHING, THIS IS HOW IT'S GOING DOWN?

God, Jax, you're an idiot. A FUCKING IDIOT. I am not sure I buy this from him. How long has it been since Abel was taken? Because it doesn't seem like it's been that long but Jax has really, really changed his tune. Drugging himself into oblivion, telling Tara she doesn't belong after everything -- I'm not sure I buy this.

Tara's anger, though, destroying, the nursery, that's so in character though. She holds herself back, so tightly controlled, but there's an anger in her, a violence. I love it.

OH SHIT. Gemma has a paper and she's going to find out about Abel, isn't she? Clay, she's going to kick your ASS for keeping this from her.

SAMCRO and Laroy's boys working together never ceases to entertain me.

I'm loving Opie being a good friend to Jax. Love their friendship as it evolves.

Hale's chief now! Oh, Hale, I'm so torn on you. Mostly you're kind of awesome, though. I'm glad you're the chief now, though man, how much do I miss Unser? A lot! Are we going to get more politics because Jacob and Hale are brothers? This could be interesting. Or it could be the most boring and frustrating part for me, since Jacob is a Republican candidate.

Damn, Opie is really stepping up and being second in command, always right there with Clay. I am loving it. More Opie is always a good thing. Also, he's looking a little bulkier than before and incredibly hot.

Jax just found Abel's little motorcycle hat. The looks exchanged between Jax and Opie and Clay -- they're doing a lot with very little, just slight facial expressions. The coloring of the show is a lot darker too. Or, maybe not darker, but grayer. Sadder. It's a broken world and it is colored like such.

Commercial break thought:

Okay, wow, not a Harley fan, but the Harley commercial about people spending money on life coaches and self help, etc., versus buying a motorcycle is AWESOME. I highly recommend buying a motorcycle.

Oh, Tig, Gemma is going to explode all over you if you keep trying to get her to stay put. Even though you're right.

Oh, Clay, nice. Having Jax be the one to shoot up the boat and not Opie. And taking the hat so he can't mope over it -- I am in love with you, Clay. SO MUCH LOVE.

Motorcycles chasing a car! Good times! Maybe there will be a big shoot out too. YUP. I called it. Because I'm awesome.

Good god, are they going to open with the death of one of the Sons? A big accident? I'm not sure I can handle that. Nice shot, Opie! Though damn, he's all tangled in barbed wire and Jax is going to get him free. BOYS. My heart, boys. My heart. (And okay, in my pants.)

Oh damn, they're way outgunned now. Aww, baby stealing brings criminals together. I like this new guy, Pony Joe? Maybe he'll stick around more.

Aww, Jax riding off all emo by himself. And of course he goes to his Dad's grave. (I'm watching with my mother, who hasn't seen any of the show, so I'm telling her little things in an aside.)

Dude, lots of commercial breaks. However, finally there's a trailer for "Wall Street" that makes me want to see it. Probably because it includes motorcycles and boxing. I'm easy like that.

Oh, Piney and Jax, bonding. Piney being John's best friend and now Jax and Opie -- I love this so much. Also Piney telling Jax he has to talk to someone and work his shit out. It's true. So true, Piney.

God, Jax, so emo. I mean, okay, with good reason and I really do feel for him when he asks Piney what he did to deserve this, but damn, emo. Aww, Jax and Piney both miss John. I do too, boys. John was my favorite character in season one, even though all we had of him was that book.

Agent Stahl and Tara in the same room. If Stahl starts grilling her, this could be hot hot hot.

UNSER! UNSER UNSER UNSER! And asking about how their girl is doing, meaning Gemma. Oh, man, that's a curious threesome right there. And stopping Clay from attacking Stahl. And now Stahl is going to try to manipulate Tara, but Tara gives as good as she gets. Better than. "I don't need a boy to handle my shit." GOD TARA I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. And Clay looking all proud.

And Clay drilling into Stahl. So calm and so cruel and so gorgeous.

I hope the day comes when someone does kill Stahl, because after Donna and now Gemma and Abel, I am ready for her to be taken care of. Though damn if she's not a good villain.

Jax just found the mess Tara left in the nursery. Yeah, that's on you, Jaxie boy.

Dude, SAMCRO Oregon is doing a shitty job of watching Gemma. Almost worth it, though, watching her try various ways to hotwire the car. And then Jax calls her right at that moment and she gets caught. And she stabs and punches. DAMN, GEMMA. And I actually feel bad for Tig.

Oh, no, Tara. Breaking down during a surgery. I feel for you so much, baby.

Commercial break and DUDE perhaps I have a new series to watch. Boxing! A former champ coming back! As long as his wife and kid aren't killed to give him reason to fight, "Light's Out" might be fun in January.

And, okay, I am ridiculously excited about the new Resident Evil movie. It's going to be awful and that's exactly what I want.

Aww, Tara comes home to find Jax cleaning up the mess she left. And still Jax tells her to go. Good grief, Tara is the first to mention Donna this season. Make me love you more. And now she's refusing to go and talking about how she doesn't know herself inside the very serious life she's created. This is quite a change, Jax so broken and disconnected, Tara so solid, so sure of them and their life together. So much like Gemma, in some ways. And the way Jax clings to her for a moment. My heart!

HOLY SHIT, Gemma went to see her dad. I had no idea. Also, the woman who answered the door - Amelia -- his caregiver, is freaking gorgeous. I'm a fan of Amelia. So that's what she saw in the paper, that Rose died. And Tig being all caring, getting Amelia to show him elsewhere so Gemma can be alone with her Dad, the reverend. God, Gemma. GEMMA. This is so much better than Gemma finding out about Abel. And so much more painful, because he doesn't know Rose is dead. He's losing his mind. SHOW, ONCE AGAIN, YOU'RE HITTING WAY TOO DAMN CLOSE TO HOME AND BREAKING MY HEART.

But Gemma backstory. My heart, my heart, my heart.

Prospect's funeral is breaking my heart, with the mix of soldiers and SAMCRO and other Sons. And dude, Clay actually admits that he's been failing to grow the ranks. And Happy's coming back! And maybe this new guy, Kozik, who has something with Tig, maybe? God, Tara approaching Prospect's coffin. Tara praying over him, with Jax and Clay flanking her. Tara's really coming up as the new matriarch.

And then Clay and Jax, alone with the dead. President and Vice-president. Father-figure and son. Broken, sparking like metal where they come together sometimes, but coming together anyway. And Clay so aware of how they're being watched by the others, because Charming sets the tone for everything else. Clay so aware of how the men love Jax and respect Jax and understand his grief. And Jax wanting to stand alone, but Clay reminding him that the club, all the charters, that's always there. John fell apart when he lost a son, and the guys worry that Jax is just like him. Clay telling Jax to decide whether he's going to believe Abel's alive or he's dead and tells him to get down on his knees and ask for something to get him to a decision fast. And then Jax alone with the dead and Clay turning his back on him, waiting. So patient, waiting.

And of course Abel is alive. (Or I'm guessing, because babies all look alike to me.)

Oh, dude, there may be something between Amelia and Gemma yet. MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART.

OH SHIT someone opened fire on the funeral. And damn, Unser is a bad ass with his gun. HALE! HOLY SHIT HALE! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO. And some little kid got shot in the crossfire. And through it all, Jax walks slow, until he attacks the shooter. And then Opie and Clay have to pull him away, because yes. Yes. That's Jax, Jax being angry and not thinking things through and taking action. This is the Jax I remember.

GOD. HALE. MY HEART.

Previews: Jax doing pushups in the prison. NICE. Tara telling them to tell Gemma. Because I love her. God, okay, this show is going to kill me this season, I can already tell. GOD. SO GOOD.

So. Season three. I'm a fan.