Yeah, it's hard, especially if you came to the "scene" by exchanging fics chapter by chapter over emails like I did, just to a handful of people as opposed to the internet at large. There's no stopping it, and intellectually I get why having this type of transformative work recognized is a good thing, but I also feel very, very protective of my particular corner of it and don't want it publicized. I don't know how to join to those feelings together nicely.